My day is not going the way I had planned it, and I’ve been cranky. Additionally, while I was working this afternoon at home, I was overcome with sleepiness, so I went to take a nap, and when I woke up I had a weird sense of foreboding, so now on top of being cranky, I have a weird sense of foreboding.

I think it’s because Steve Irwin died.

I know it’s crazy because I’ve never actually seen one of his shows for longer than it took me to change the channel, but I have always loved Steve Irwin. He was cute and energetic and obviously had the time of his life doing the thing he loved most. What’s more, he made it all seem effortless.

I love what I do, but it’s not always, or even most of the time, fun, and it’s never effortless. Nor do I have the energy to make it seem effortless.

Life just seems dim today, and I don’t think it’s because of the rain.